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nerves playing up alot today dont kno hy but they are...hate it, hate it, hate it, its the shaking i cant deal with...My frienad Kirsty is coming to see me so hopefully that makes me feel a little better..

Good Day!

It's been a good day so far, got up made some phone calls...ran a lovely big bath n soaked ma bones.....The biggest thing and i know it doesn't sound much, i got ready and went to the shop!....wowwwww...I know its such a small thing but its a really big thing for me! I am Very Proud of myself! When you suffer from high anxiety the smallest things seem so difficult to do! Cant wait to tell Grant, hoe i dont sound like a total poof!
     Go team H...xxx....thts me by the way! . x

 Well made a beautiful tea the nite,,,if i could make love to myself i would , it was fuckin AWESOME!!!!!!!!!..Grants away to play football..hee hee...He will be Fecked when he gets in..lol...Atleast one of uz is trying to get healthy, canae wait for the 6pack...ooooooooooooo...mmmmmmmmm...ahhhhhhh!
 Back to me now im doing kl as feck got some nice calm tabs off the docs so all is good for just now..just going to sit and draw for a while...Forgot how good it is....like to make up my own pictures might put one on here and u can see wht u think..Mch love n happyness to all..xxx
  

OOOOOOOOOOfttttt!

Bit of a heavy day there, but im home now and Grants makin ma tea!.........mmmmmmmm...Korma!!!!! 
   Mental health team comin at u,, ahh well atleast iv took the first step. Its going to be along road ahead but bring the Fecker on!....So drain now tho, dont really know what my mind and body is feeling but im sure im ok..I have my Grant so i know im ok...god bless his beautiful soul!xx

up early and its not because of my inzomnia

YEEEEHAAAAA!...up nice n early and i feel good....Had a right good sleep over the last few nites, much needed!....We will see what happens today from this moment to the next..just a nice slow pace for me, no stress.

on the love boat! Nature is sooooo good.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...................................x

Well here it goes. Never going to sleep today but i am safe n sound in ma own house so not too bad!..  
   I wrote a lot last nite in my little book., haven't done tht in a long time but it feels so good to get stuff out of ur head and onto paper. Think there is an eliment of song writing in them need to have a jam with my dad and see what we can do.....My head is always filled with songs and lyrics, i think its just now im starting to realise it more. It was common i was younger i used to make up song and sing them..I remember when i must of been about 6 or 7, i humm to sing this tune to my dad, then i started putting words to it.. About two mnths later my song came on the radio...It was the same tune all the way throw..My dad was like " Wit the fuck, u made tht tune b4 them Hen!"......The band was Crowed House!....Ill have to ask ma old man what the song was again...Get bk to u on tht one...much love to all.Hxxx